Kinley's Death

I was faced with death on 23rd April 2011. Kinley, Estelle's son passed away virtually in front of me. We have just been getting together and living in harmony with each other whilst his mother was in hospital for the two weeks prior to his death. I am really sad and miss him very much. It is so strange that I did not want him around because of his past and the problems his mother and I had with him, but yet I miss him. His mom always told me he was a good boy and I saw that in him the last few weeks we were together. All I could do now was to give him a good send off and now look after his mother whilst she is going through her grieving process. It is really hard to see her suffering so much. It is probably the hardest thing for a parent to bury his or her child. We always think that our children will bury us but sometimes it turns out the other way around. This time had me thinking hard about my children and how I would feel if they were to pass before me. We take each other so much for granted when we have them around us but when they are gone we miss them. It is a sad time for me and his mom. I have to post another note when I feel ab it better. chow